i saw my psychiatrist today and told him i stopped taking the risperdal. he was okay with it. he wants me down to just one medication. right now i'm taking paxil and wellbutrin. i think he wants to cut out the wellbutrin eventually. but he's still trying to find the right medication for me. if the paxil doesn't work, he's thinking of something else like zoloft or cymbalta. i told him that i've been feeling a lot sleepier lately and sleeping in. he said we had a couple options but he wanted to try increasing the paxil to see if that gave me more energy. if it made me feel more sleepy, then we'd have to try something else. i feel really tired today and sleepy. i went to my psych appointment at 10:30, came home, lay in bed and took another nap, got out of bed around 1:00. anyway...
regarding exercise, i want to go to the gym more, but it's hard to motivate myself to go. last weekend, i went swimming. yesterday, i took a walk at the beach, put my feet in the water, listened to the waves. i was practicing mindfulness.
my new job is full-time. i haven't worked a permanent full-time job in a few years. i've done some temp work in the past year, but nothing long-term. so i am kind of nervous about the whole thing. i don't want to screw up.
today i'm going to a baby shower for my cousin. i don't know why i feel so tired and sleepy. i actually don't know if i want to go up on the paxil. i feel rather medicated.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
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mindfulness is a good thing to practice. to me, that is a good thing that you can spend time by the ocean. selfawareness is what this whole game of life and wellness is about, is it not? you seem smart about how you determine how much of your meds to take. i felt so lost when i was "over-medicated" for so long, just because i felt so hopeless about my life and just did whatever my pdoc told me to do. i don't want to be like that again. just go slow with your thoughts about things, try not to get anxious... if the job doesn't work out it won't be the end of the world, will it? at least you are trying!
I wonder if it's medication or depression that is causing you to be so sleepy? Good for you for trying to exercise! You're doing more than me! :-) My pdoc told me that having a job (although he didn't mention full or part, I have a full) boosts your self esteem, and lets you know you really CAN function normally. It's true - when I stay home and don't work, I feel so worthless and question if I can even hold down a job. When I work, I see that I can, and it's liberating, although...I do have issues that "normal" people do not have, such as making excuses to see my pdoc...
Congrats on the new job.
thanks!
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