cymbalta side-effects

i didn't sleep well last night. i was twitching a little and edgy and i kept waking up. i thought i wouldn't be able to fall asleep. i was pretty sure it was because of the cymbalta. i didn't know if i should take it this morning, so i called my psychiatrist and left a message. but then i ended up taking it anyway at 9am and called my psychiatrist back to disregard my message. i see my psychiatrist on saturday so i'll just see how things go until then. maybe the side-effects will go away. it takes a month or so for side-effects to go away completely. i feel okay during the day, more functional, with the cymbalta. sometimes i feel like smiling. it's similar to the way i felt when i was on the combo of zoloft and wellbutrin. the cymbalta is okay. it's just at night when i'm sleeping when i feel the side-effects. i hope they go away soon.

i almost didn't go to work this morning. my mom had to wake me up. she told me that i needed to go to work because when she and my dad are gone they won't be able to take care of me and if i don't keep this job then i might not be able to work again. it's been hard for me to work, so i have to keep going even though i don't feel like it. i was so tired this morning, but i felt okay during the day. the cymbalta is more of an activating drug for me i guess. i hope i don't get any complications from it. all these psych meds are scary because of all their side-effects. the cymbalta has been good for my creativity i think, or maybe i've just been motivating myself to write more. sometimes i can't tell if it's the meds working or if it's me. my psych doc at the hospital would probably say it's me. i miss him again. i really do.

i think i'm going to take an ambien tonight to help me sleep better. it really doesn't work for me that much, it doesn't keep me asleep, but it might help me to relax a bit more during the night. i might have to ask my psychiatrist for a sleeping aid or something to help me sleep, something relaxing i can take at night. i wonder if i could ask for a benzo. lol. i know they're addictive, and knowing me i'd be tempted to take one every night. i should listen to my relief from anxiety cd more often. i should practice my dbt skills. i talked to donna this morning. she says she takes otc sleeping aids and benadryl for sleep. i wonder if i should try them too.