Friday, September 15, 2006
new seasons is a no go :(
well, i quit my therapist. i guess i should look for another one. i don't know if i want to though. she suggested i go with a psychologist instead. i was thinking of that too. (she was an mft.) i don't know. i feel like all i need right now is a job. i don't know what i want to work on in therapy anymore, except just have someone to talk to. i don't know what therapy is all about anymore. oh and i found out that place new seasons doesn't provide outpatient dbt therapy unless you've paid for the whole package, which means you have to be in their treatment program. that totally sucks. why can't the therapists do dbt in their private practices? i feel like i'm being denied a service because i'm not rich enough. it's crap.
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Weird, because even though I pay for my visits (well, through insurance), I've been told by therapists they can't help me because I'm bipolar and it's "chemical". I just want them to tell me what is bipolar and what is me, you know? Someone to listen and help me figure out what's going on in my head, like you said. I hope you find a good therapist..good for you for trying to find one!
maybe you should try harder to find a therapist in your area that will work with you. my previous therapists have told me they work with bipolar patients, so i'm sure there are other therapists out there who will work with you. maybe you need to move to another state. lol.
from what i know about bipolar disorder, it's a mood disorder characterized by a manic episode. you have to have had a manic or hypomanic episode to be diagnosed bipolar. in your blog, you wonder if the way you think or your thoughts are characteristics of bipolar disorder. i would say they probably aren't. they're just aspects of your personality. if your way of thinking bothers you, you can work on changing your thought patterns with cognitive behavior therapy, which is what therapists usually use in their practices to enact change in their patients.
i would guess that thoughts only become symptomatic of bipolar disorder when the patient is delusional, i.e., psychotic. but really, i think most of your thoughts are pretty normal, meaning you're not the only one who has negative thoughts about themselves, but it is concerning that you have these thoughts quite frequently. i think therapy can help you to change the way you think and see yourself.
dang it! i just wrote out a lovely response but i must have put something that looked like html in it and it all got erased.
basically i said that my experiences with psychologists (i've seen 3 different ones) have been MUCH better than any time i've spent with therapists. maybe it is their advanced training that enables them to understand the complexities of disorders like BP better... but they are not so dang convoluted like pdocs are. therapists aren't much good for other than just talking to about your problems.
if i could afford to i would go to a psychologist. therapy just usually ends up depressing me and i stop going, like now. this last therapist is a nice, older lady from Berkeley. she gets me to think out loud and i pretty much end up figuring out things for myself in doing so. but as far as helping me understand my DEEP STUFF that disrails me in my life, she is just a nice old lady with a box of tissues...
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